Playing safe

I've put up some walls to protect myself for quite some time - I've never gotten myself close enough to someone to talk about my deepest darkest secrets except my best friend. I'd get close, but the path I chose to define for myself was the path of listening. I'd always be the ear, with the occasional rambling of random blab. I'd contribute bits about myself, but not to a point of entirety - my walls were high and I didn't want to tear them down because it was just... comfortable. I've kept myself in a palace where I felt safe.

But I changed. Without being aware, I become more comfortable with these social groups I belong. I begin to talk and talk and talk so much about my self. I didn’t even notice that I already shared them my deeper, inner thoughts, my feelings. It’s where I feel safe now.

Happy and contented

I had my last break up almost five months ago, also the longest period of time I’ve been single since I entered my first relationship.

Yeah, there are several men trying to change that . But I didn’t allow them, not allowing them and may be, won’t even allow them to. I admit I have crushes but no more than that.

I didn’t know why. I thought it were all about my last boyfriend. That maybe I still love him and have to win him back. But it’s not all about him anymore.

It is just that I’m not yet ready to be committed again. I’m happy for what I am now. SINGLE. I have more time for my self and my friends. I can focus on my studies without waiting for someone’s call or text. I can be around my self without someone trying to change me. I can talk with guys without someone getting jealous. I’m not required to tell someone where I am and what I am doing. I don’t have other priority except my self. I don’t have worries about break up. I have my world just mine.

Besides, I can’t feel that so-called “spark” to any one right now. And I haven’t found yet the man who is worthy enough for me to give up this freedom I have right now.

Don’t I make sense? Do you think I’m being so irrational?

With Love,
Ariane

Bicentennial Man

I was cleaning up my room few hours ago when I saw a piece of paper. It has quotations/dialogues I’ve wrote down last September from Bicentennial Man, a movie that was assigned for our group for a Movie Review in our class, Philosophy of Man.

The words are so inspiring so I’ve decided to make a blog for it. Well actually, I supposed to make one right after the day we’ve watched the film. I just can’t remember why I did not.


Three Laws of Robotics

• A robot may not cause harm to human being or through an action, cause a human being come to harm
• A robot must obey all human orders except those orders that conflict with the first law.
• A robot must protect itself for as long as doing so does not conflict with the first two laws.

“Andrew is not a person. He is a property. But a property is also important.”


“It doesn’t matter what he is. One needed to be benefit for what he does.”


“Things change. Things always change. People move on, as it should be.”


“One merely wishes to be declared to be free. Terrible wars have been fought where millions have died for one idea, freedom. And it seems that something that means so much to so many people would be worth having.”


“We have personality. Personality is much more important than intelligence.”


“Imperfection is what makes us unique.”


“It’s cruel that you can cry and I cannot. There is a terrible pain that that needed to express. Will all the people that I care for always leave?”


“Take chances, make mistake. Sometimes, it’s not important not to be perfect but do the wrong thing. Not to learn from your mistakes. We need to make them to find out what is real and what is not, to find out what you feel. Human beings are terrible messes.”


“He wants to be acknowledged for who he is. No more, no less. Not for acclaims, not for approval but the simple truth or recognition. And it needs to achieve he have to live or die with dignity.”


With Love,
Ariane