Jchain

Facing up college life is an event that many dread, others nervously anticipate, and few get excited about and I really didn’t imagine that living my college life would be far better like this. At first, I thought it was all about entering the classroom, having little chit chats with your blockmates during the break, meeting few friends and seeing myself drowned in studying lectures just like what others are saying. But I found my self laughing with that BIG JOKE. Being in J was too different.

Instead of dreading the return to class, I started to get excited about it. I’m really surprised when I saw myself in the classroom not just to learn but also of the social life I have with J. I found them as one of my motivations in this course which I really didn’t want to take up. While to others, the grades we are in make a difference, being in J is a wonderfully unique experience where we focus more on how to live life not just academically. It’s not just having chit chats during the break but the whole day even during classes. It’s not just meeting very few friends but being friends with all the blockmates you have as well as the professors. It’s not all about studying but more on partying. Hell yeah, PARTY. Everyday seems to be a party whenever I’m with them. They really make me feel good about being myself.

Being in J is discovering you not just as an individual but more on a part of a social group. Highs, lows, emotions, romance, friendships, relationships, surviving, jackass, joy, sadness, broken hearts, academic, love, status, sports, temptations, shots, GMs, ff, sex (haha) are some of the words that all come to mind with the letter J.

I would not forget those times we’ve shared together. From simply laughing in every punch line, pick-up lines, adlibs, green jokes especially the “anaconda thing” and so on and so forth to gossips, cheatings and making cheat sheets, food trips, sharing problemsabout grades to a pet died to love life to family things, etc., cutting classes, playing computer games together, drinking sessions, sleepovers. We spend time together because we truly enjoy each others’ company. We don't sit around and worry about whether they like us or how long the friendship will last because there's enough trust and acceptance that we don't need to question so many things. And with that, I’ll always treasure the friendship built between each of us.

I would not say goodbye my friends, I'll just say I'll miss you, until we meet again. Keep in touch!

J is still the best block ever. I love you guys. I always will.

With Love,
Ariane

Farewell, blockmates!

Late this night, I’m crying again these tears away, still wondering what I can do or what I can say. It sucks. I can’t even help myself, my Baby, my block but just to cry. Maybe I’m hurtin’ because it was so sudden. I haven't even prepared myself for this. Seems like we were laughing so hard bullying one another and when I blinked, “poof” we’re saying goodbye now.

I know I learned a lot academically this semester, but I think I learned more about myself. I don’t have any regret becoming irregular this semester. I'm happy with the way things turned out but it's a very bittersweet feeling. I really don’t know how to say goodbye.

I know I’m exaggerating. We’re not graduating. We’re not all parting ways. Besides, it wasn’t really a goodbye since we’ll still be seeing each others somehow. But what’s just hurt is that it would never be the same again. You know, exactly the same blockmates you’re going to befriend with inside the classroom, same jokes, same everything. I’m going to miss those times when I would enter the room so sad or mad then with just a click, I’m going to smile or laugh of someone’s joke. It’s really hard to accept change but we don’t have any choice but to learn to let go and face the fact that good things never last.

Remember the tune, “Sa puso ko”. Yun un eh. Isa lang puso ko pero lahat kayo pinagkasya ko. That’s why it’s hurting me so much. You guys really became a part of me. Maybe that is why it hurts so much to lose the block that we have because it also means losing a part of me.

“Kung mawawala naman kami, may darating naman eh” –Bats

+@n6 !n@. Kahit hindi na sila dumating, wag lang kayong mawala. If I can just close my eyes entering the classroom next semester without you, I will. It’s just that I don’t want anything right now but to have the same block, especially if it’s going to be with the former Js.

I’m gonna miss you all. Let’s fight for this! I know we’re all weak but we can be strong together, right? I believe that true strength is being able to hold it all together when everyone else is expecting us to fall apart. We can pass through this. Always remember that God only makes happy ending. If it’s not happy, then it’s not the end.

I love you all guys. I really do.

*Believe that everything happens for a reason. Know a good thing when you see it and don't let it slip away. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.*


With Love,
Ariane

I don't want you to go

*It hurts to say goodbye to the person I almost gave my life to, knowing that life won't be the same without him. But it is better to give up the feeling rather than to know I’m the only one fighting.*

He’s giving up. There are a lot of pressures that make him so irrational he almost thought that breaking up is the only answer to somehow relieve the pain in his heart or somehow free his mind from the things that bother him so much. I do understand him but damn, it just really hurts.

I want to give up, too. While we’re talking over it on text messaging, a part of me thinks that maybe it was really the best for us. That maybe we’re not really meant to be. I wanna hold on to my pride and tell him, “Go! If that’s what you really want, I’ll accept it.” But I didn’t take the risk. It’s like holding on to a sharp blade, I’m bleeding yet I don’t want to let go if that means loosing him forever.

I continue to be strong to fight the urge of still keeping the relationship we have. I'm really surprised how I transformed from a weak baby girl to a strong young lady for someone I love. I'm really happy for what I become because of him. I thought it was the end.

With Love,
Ariane

Goodbye?

*I had a dream and it was about you. I smiled and recalled the memories we had then I noticed that tears started to fall from my eyes until it covered up my face. You know why? ‘Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye.*

I know we’re not going to break up. He might just fail a subject and that’s what frightens me. He might be out of the school next semester. Yeah, I know these are just what ifs but I just can’t refrain my mind from thinking how would it be living my life without him near me. The days have been brighter because he existed and now, the nights will surely be darker if he would be gone.

He had been the treasure in my hand. He had been the one who always stood beside me. So unaware, I foolishly believed that he would always be there. I even forgot that there will come a day, when I will turn my head and he will slip away. I’m going to miss his presence. You know, the thing that when I look around the classroom, there would be him. And then he would smile when he saw me looking at him. I’ll miss that music as he calls me Baby. I’ll miss leaning on his shoulders, holding his hands, hugging him almost every minute of the day just because I feel to do so. I'll miss waking up in the morning knowing that he'll wait for me at FCM  to go to school together. I’ll miss going home with him. I’ll miss his jokes. I’ll miss everything when I have him right here beside me.

I’m getting so irrational, I know, I had live my life without him before and I survived. Yet, he just became a part of it and my world seemed to start revolving around him. He became one of my sources of motivation in taking up nursing this semester. And I really don’t have an idea how to continue without him anymore.

OMG! I don’t know what to do right now. While I’m getting so paranoid here thinking about what would happen with my life at school without my Baby, I can feel how much he’s confused at this very moment on how he would tell his parents, what will happen to him the next month, where he would be going and so on and so forth. It’s hard to tell him that things will be fine, that it’s okay ‘coz I know it doesn't. Damn! I wanna relieve his heart from the depression he has right now but I don’t know how. Is being just right beside him worth my responsibility as his girl? Can my hugs and kisses enough to comfort him? It is so painful that I can’t do anything to make him feel better. It makes me feel so useless. I hate it.

With Love,
Ariane

Love over bitterness

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever believe this would ever happen. I never expected that fate will put us through this.

I know we don't get to talk much anymore. Being far away from you is killing me, not sharing every day with you and not being able to hold you hurt so much but it doesn't change the way I feel about you in my heart. I'm overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest but Baby, I love you, in love with, and everything.

If only you could hold me now, then maybe you would feel my love for you that burns with a flame high enough to last. If only you could hear my heart beat, then maybe you would understand the language of love with which it speaks. If only you could kiss me then maybe you would taste my love for you that's so sweet, and if only you could look into my eyes, the window to my soul, then you would know that this is no lie.

Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then it is forever and a day, I can't wait to be with you. The way I feel about you some people call it crazy, some call it insane, but I call it true love.

With Love,
Ariane

How to save your relationship

I found this article at Yahoo featured.. Some good one and others are more theory.

• Remember the point of the fight is to reach a solution, not to win, be right, or make your partner wrong.
• Don’t bring up all the prior problems that relate to this one. Leave the past in the past; keep this about one recent problem. Solve one thing at a time.
• Practice equality. If something is important enough to one of you, it will inevitably be important to both of you, so honor your partner’s need to solve a problem. Let your partner know you hear him or her.
• State your problem as a request, not a demand. To make it a positive request, use “I messages” and “please”.
• Don’t use power struggle tactics: guilt and obligation, threats and emotional blackmail, courtroom logic: peacekeeping, sacrificing, or hammering away are off limits.
• Know your facts: If you’re going to fight for something, know the facts about the problem: find out what options are available, and know how you feel and what would solve the problem for you.
• Don’t fight over who’s right or wrong. Opinions are opinions, and that won’t solve the problem. Instead, focus on what will work.
• Don’t guess what your partner is thinking or feeling. Instead, ask. “What do you think?” Or “How do you feel about it?” And ask if he or she has anything to add to the discussion. “Is there anything else we need to discuss now?”
• If you’re angry, express it calmly. “I’m angry about …” There’s no need for drama, and it won’t get you what you want. Anger is satisfied by being acknowledged, and by creating change. Anger is a normal emotion — rage is phony, it’s drama created by not taking care of yourself.
• Listen with your whole self. Paraphrase what your partner says; check to see if you understand by repeating what is said. “So you are angry because you think I ignored you. Is that right?”
• If you want to let off steam (vent), ask permission or take a time out. Handle your excess emotion or energy by being active (run, walk, hit a pillow,) writing, or talking to someone who is not part of the problem. Don’t direct it personally at anyone. You can’t vent and solve problems at the same time.
• Don’t try to solve a problem if you’re impaired: tired, hungry, drunk or unstable.
• Surrender to your responsibility. When you become aware that you have made a mistake, admit it, and apologize. Use it as an opportunity to learn and grow.
• Hold hands, look at each other, and remember you’re partners.

If we, people just keep in mind these things, I'm sure, there would be no more break ups..

With Love,
Ariane