I don't want you to go

*It hurts to say goodbye to the person I almost gave my life to, knowing that life won't be the same without him. But it is better to give up the feeling rather than to know I’m the only one fighting.*

He’s giving up. There are a lot of pressures that make him so irrational he almost thought that breaking up is the only answer to somehow relieve the pain in his heart or somehow free his mind from the things that bother him so much. I do understand him but damn, it just really hurts.

I want to give up, too. While we’re talking over it on text messaging, a part of me thinks that maybe it was really the best for us. That maybe we’re not really meant to be. I wanna hold on to my pride and tell him, “Go! If that’s what you really want, I’ll accept it.” But I didn’t take the risk. It’s like holding on to a sharp blade, I’m bleeding yet I don’t want to let go if that means loosing him forever.

I continue to be strong to fight the urge of still keeping the relationship we have. I'm really surprised how I transformed from a weak baby girl to a strong young lady for someone I love. I'm really happy for what I become because of him. I thought it was the end.

With Love,
Ariane