I don't cry a lot about you anymore but that doesn't mean I don't miss you like hell.
If I take it back to the beginning, I’d probably find no resolve strong enough to pacify me which is why I choose not to waste attempts on both. I’d stretch my memory only to the extent of knowing it's been quite a while since we separate schools. Anything beyond that is exhausting all over those 1, 2, or 3 weeks still sit at the back of my head, naturally following orders to steer clear from my everyday sight.
Rough days have been rare, but they suck. Sadly, every day’s been just that since we separate ways, and it doubles the pain that you really can't push me to be strong anymore. Before, it would've been one-two-three easy. Smiles lang, kulitan or I love yous, THEN DONE. As simple as that. It still baffles me that you had the quickest remedy to all things that suck, and that you had all ways to make me smile and feel better. I know it weren't the smiles, or the kulitan or anything else. It was you that made me believe that everything's going to be okay.
I know you still think of me once in a while, and if you haven't realized, my heart has a phenomenal empty space because of you. No, scratch that. Not you but the lack of you in my life.
I love you. The only comfort I have right now knows that you'll never forget about that, not even for a single day. Wherever you are, and whatever it is you're doing, my heart goes out to you like it always has, without a doubt.
With Love,
Ariane
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