First day

Mixed Emotions.

There was excitement, at seeing my former blockmates after the sembreak. There was sadness, at the first of many lasts over the past months. There was nervousness, over meeting new blockmates, professors, and new subjects. There was happiness, at finally being in second semester of sophomore life. More over, there was fear of how would the changes will affect each and everyone’s life. It was really an anxious day.

Okay, this is how the first day went through.

Deep breath. I forced myself to keep my head up and braced myself for the plunge. I slowly pushed, opened the door of my room and I am overwhelmed with what’s before me.

The day started with a great smile seeing my Baby waiting for me at the FCM. Wanting to make myself believe that the next days would be the same. We slightly talked about what will going to happen next.

After accompanying Kristian of getting his records for transferring to other school – it was really a hard time fixing the things he needed as we part our school ways – it’s now my turn to assess myself. I left him at CB playing DOTA with the former Js.

Clutching my bag close to my chest, I consult the bulletin board for the schedules that begins to quiver in my nervous hands. I wander through the hallway and finally enter my first classroom with Cha. Breathe. Remember to breath. In, out. With all the courage I can muster, I stepped inside: the new baby girl.
As the day went on, I kept asking myself, “What have I gotten myself into?!” Coming from J where I’m already comfortable with and got so much used to be with, there was no way to be prepared for the culture shock.

It was funny how I keep on looking around the classroom, still hoping that I would see exactly the same faces again. Still in denial that things are different now. OMG, I really want to lean my head into my desk and sob at that very moment.

If you can’t relate to my situation in any way, someday you will. Change is inevitable, at some point in your life you will be the “newbie” surrounded by unfamiliar faces and situations.

After the class, we went straight to Hot Dish Grille with my sessionmates. Yeah, not blockmates anymore. [Sigh] We talked about how our days started, our fears and hopes about the next days. We all reminisced the things that passed within the last semesters. We've really forged something special there, and there's more to come. I'm excited to see how it all unfolds.

With Love,
Ariane